If you're looking for fun, sexy fluff, turn yourself around and find something else because you're not going to get that here.

Geezus this hurt.

Definitely a more contemplative, melancholy tale from Derek's pov. Here the man pain is front and center; not so much a blatant self loathing but a calm acceptance of a perceived unworthiness. Because of this, Derek feigns nonchalance so as to not push, but really, he just wants to hold on and never let go.

His self sacrifice is frustrating and sad. Not particularly smooth or over explanatory - this fic however, has a deep well of feels - painful and depressing. But there is hope - and like Derek, I'm going to grab onto that and take what I can get.