⚠️ TW: parental death, fatphobia, dieting, anorexia, gaslighting, manipulation, domestic violence, physical abuse, mental abuse, mental health, grooming, body dysmorphia, binge eating, bulimia, alcoholism, drug use ⚠️ Wow this book was one hell of an emotional rollercoaster that just kept astonishing me at every single chapter! This book is a memoir from Jenette McCurdy, one of the main characters from the popular 2007 Nickelodeon show iCarly, about her life and upbringing in acting as well as her relationship with her Mom, Debra, both during her life and after her death. Jennette was 6 years old when she had her first acting audition. Her mother’s dream was for her only daughter to become a star and Jennette would do anything to make her mother happy. She went along with heavily calorie restricted diets and weighing herself five times a day. She endured so much manipulative and gas lighting abuse from her Mom where she would go along with anything just for her love and approval but it never seemed enough. Even to the extent that she was showered by her Mom until age sixteen, sometimes even alongside her older brother, while sharing her diaries, emails and all of her income. This book is so harrowing to read but also darkly hilarious as Jenette uses humour throughout to discuss the events she went through after discovering therapy and quitting acting as she now embarks on recovery and for the first time in her life gets to make decisions truly for herself. Overall, I highly recommend giving this one a read but please take the TW's into account because it is a very hard read.